HAPPYBIRTHDAY JOSEPH SU !

just want to post this before it hits 12AM .
happybirthdayy to joseph su.
you're sixteen nows(:
with bracesxb
ily ♥(:

i miss who you used to be. now ur just a stranger in my eyes .

muchoo stressed. bad bad bad day todayys:O shiet with the fucking seniors who wont fucking grow up. parents bitching. & the math email got me annoyed for a bit . i think people should stop bitching at him ! OMG ; be open minded and give him a break. so much problems todays ; soo pissed. although it wasn't much. spencer&david& justin were the ones that shed some sunshine towards me todayys(: love youu guyys ♥(: justin wasn't on aim yesterdays & he's not on todays :O where are youu where are youu justinn ?;( brighten my day once moree `cus raymond's not the one that i run to anymore . maybe it's just me but in my eyes, i can honestly say he changed. i dont feel the love that i used to feel anymore . not romantic love or friend love ; i don't see the person that used to chase away all my troubles and fears, the one that put a smile on my face . where is that person ? did he fade away to make room for elaine ?:x idontknow . but where are youu justin ? i adoree talking to you. you are the few people that i feel like i can be myself around you .

back on blogspot .

ahhhs; haven't been on blogspot for awhile nowws. soo im just gonna post everything that happened to me lately all on one post. hope this thing wont be madd longg !:O well let see[: im not sickk anymorees. yayys to tiffanyy(: ohkiedohks ; soo on 09202009, that's a sunday btw. it was spencer &my one monthh, yeahhs bbyy !♥ we made it(: it's longer than most of my relationships soo im good(: we went to rockefeller & hung out . &i still don't know how to get to stuyvesant. im a failurexb lols . my bby got me a ring&i've been wearing it ever since, rarely took it off unless im doing something that might fck up the ringg, im madd careful bout it(:i muchoo miss him right nowws:[ idk what my feelings are telling me, although i lik him more and more each day . idont think im in love though:[ i dont even think i knoww what love is anymores because some people shattered it for me. but in the end, i still love them , idk whyy xb well i hope my love will grow cus im soo hooked on to him right nows(: i loveeyouu spencer. happyonemonth boo ; well technically, belated one month but it's somewaht the same ? xb lols . well lets fastforward 5 days later which makes the calendar mark september25,2009(: this is alsoo a veryy special day because it's my second boyfriend, ERICYUEN's sixteenbirthdayy♥(: yeahhs sandiee; MY BOYFRIENDD ! MINEE !;DD he didn't want to make a huge party thing so we went to his place for hotpot . it was a small little gathering with sandie, calvin, jackie, amanda, manshui, joseph, me and obviously ERIC 'cus he's the birthday boy ! amy came after i left, i had to leave earlier cus one, i dont live in chinatown like everyone else and second, cus this little idiot is afraid of the dark xb although it was a small gathering, it was muchoo fun . except i kinda, not really, well i did, burn jackie xb well he burned me too soo we're even ! all of us equals a partayyy !(; we don't need anyone elsee:b well befores we went to hotpot, sandie & i roamed around soho & went to bloomingdales to try on expensive dresses cus we'reloserrs like that. &also to use the bathroom cus the bathroom is pretty xb lols . i lik the dress that i found, but it was $400:O so fck it. btw the dress is the first picture that's on this post. we wanted to camerawhore & play around with a lot more dresses but the guys keep telling us to come and the people that works in bloomingdales says no photography:( soo sad sad us . well anywayys, lets fastforward to two days later which makes it september27,2009 . why is this day soo special? well because it's my girlfriend's sweetsixteen ! happysweetsixteen amanda hillary wong♥ . the party was killer !:DD madd funn although sandie, shawna&i were dying after wearing highheels for hours & dancing & grinding on random people. It was really hot in the room and everyone was dyingg but im pretty suree everyone would agree that they had muchoo fun. i swear, the smoke screen thingy is really mist ! amanda looks like a princess, just gorgeous; pretty in pink(: loved her dress ! the party was soo worth begging my mom to let me go although she didnt like me going home at like 3-4am soo she told me to go sleep over at someone's krib that night. i sleptovr at my bby's home♥ . it was really fun, watching disneychannel til 3am in the morning ! it was a happy day except for my dyingg feet. everyone was sore for the past few dayys and all the girls came to school sore as hell except for ashley cus she got a massage xb lols. o0hs btw; who knew pawel can really get down & dirtyy ?(; calvin too ! lols . i loved that night, followed by yomkippur . spencer cooked me breakfast which i think is really sweet of him. you are trulyy amazing♥(: well, i think that's all the special things that i happened to me, can't think of anything else right nowws. soo end of memorylane. im supposed to be homeworking right nowws but ill do that laters , todays is the lunar moon shiet & my mom is being pissy &the sky is crying soo i cant hang out with my babe, i miss youu mchh ! soo todays; i end up playing with my adobe photoshop, i made a new wallpaper dedicated to my loserr(: & i also looked at my old wallpapers that i made like the one i made with kevin&i when we were together, i darkened that one & fcked it up kind of . 'cus i was boredd xb this lyric describes kinda how i feel about the relationship, except for the things in white. it jus sounds nice in the song . "i used to be love drunk but now im hungover.love you forever, forever is over. we used to kiss all night, now its jus a barfight so dont come to me crying, say hello then goodbye" although i dont love him anymores, i still care about him even though we're not friends anymore. it was my fault :x but i did expect more trust from you. in the end, did i deserve your love? idkk. . . . well upcoming events : columbus day hangout with the summerloves♥ and i hope i can make it to raymond's eighteenth birthdayy partyy;b my liddoboy is growwing up !♥(: lols . i dont want to go to the blood manor :( its scaryyyy ! soo i rather not . well muchoo fun hanging with lisa, kelly, anna, raymond and justin yesterdays afterskool(:
--btw, this note was supposed to be soo mch longer but when i posted the thing, it says there's something wrong with the proxy soo it deleted random chunks of my post & i dont remember all the stuff that i wrote which really suxs cus it fcked up this whole thing & wasted my time >.>